The Grotto Gazette: 16/07/23
- Fable
- Jul 16, 2023
- 2 min read
This week has been pretty standard, with a couple of challenges on my part. Nothing major and I believe I dealt with them well.
V (daughter) has had an eventful week. She had a school disco, and she has been preparing to move up to year 2! It's bittersweet watching her grow.
Earlier this week I faced a near shutdown. This occurred due to something unexpected happening when I visited the job centre. Although I didn't have support while I was there, M was able to support and comfort me once I arrived home. I spent the rest of that day in a funk.
As well as that, I have been dealing with ~feelings~ this week. At first I wasn't 100% sure what the feeling/s were (Yay alexithymia 🙃). I tried to figure it out on my own at first. Contemplating if it was jealousy, envy, or something else. D has a pretty active social life, and a busy home life, so at first I thought I was jealous that he was spending time with his friends. However, I knew this wasn't the case as I don't mind him spending time with his friends. I want him to hang out with them and have fun. Then I thought it could have been envy. Me being envious that his friends get to hang out with him online more often than I do, or I was feeling envious that he has more friends than i do. Perhaps bordering on feeling lonely. While this may have been part of what I was feeling, I didn't think it was the entirety. Since I couldn't quite pin point it, as it didn't feel like something I had felt a whole lot. After talking to M and trying to figure out what the feeling/s were, I think it boiled down to how much I am missing D. I do hope we can get around to doing more things online while he is at home. This may ease the feelings until I can see him again. Speaking of which, it is about 25 days until he comes back and visits for the weekend. Which I am super excited for, I miss him so much. Seeing him once a month for a weekend is hard, but hopefully it won't always be like that. Although these feelings were difficult, I think I dealt with them okay.
This coming week is the last week of school before the summer hols. M is working a few more days than normal, but thankfully he has Friday off so we can go watch V's school assembly. I'm hoping to be able to spend some more time with D this week, and maybe on the weekend all of us (Me, D, and M) can spend some time gaming together.
And that brings us to the end of this Gazette! How has your week treated you?
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